Done

Tonight is the night  I want to stop my breath To give up and be done with this place Pass on It has to be better than having to feel this pain Abandoned  Discarded Rejected Unwanted In my chest I cannot find the air to breathe  My lungs drowning in my tears My body aching…

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Free

You continued to live your life of purgatory with me  It was my love for you that set you free You never asked why I didn’t fight to stay  Why I chose to suffer in this way  I wonder if you will ever under a dark starry sky think of this  And realise the man…

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Just be

It is okay to just be I have found a part of me Even if it be by choice I was eclipsed by all of you I thank you for the lessons The time, the love But none is as valuable In the lessons I am learning  To liberate myself Unburden myself   Heal myself And…

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No Turning Back

The further I travel this road The shorter the distance becomes between my head and my heart No turning back Or traveling routes I have before They were dead ends that lead me here I want to travel it alone

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Unsaid, unsent #3

You often asked me how to deal with trust, and I never had an answer.  The thing is, I couldn’t answer because I didn’t have an answer.  Now that we done. I do.  Distrust is a blurry mess when you inherently suffer from anxiety. If you suffer from this curse, as I can now own,…

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Brick

I want to be hit on the head with a brick I want to forget you I want to not feel you I want to not hate you I want to be free of you I want to go back To a time when I didn’t know you When I never loved you I want…

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Shedding

It’s so hard to shed you That side of you that I allowed to become part of me I am not you But so wanted to be part of you Now you are in me And I don’t know how to find me I need to shed you Like the leaves falling on an autumn…

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Today I hate you

Today I hate you  For the way I love you  Today I regret having met you  For the love I still have for you I knew from day one you would always leave You said you would  Today I hate me  For the way I didn’t love me 

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Tiffany, two macaroons and a tattoo.

Twenty four April 2021 was a big day, a momentous day, a liberating day. It was the day I was going to get my first tattoo. I woke up early. Not a normal habit for me. I have in my life found mornings to be rude and obnoxious, but in my current emotional and mental…

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